and can i just say.

what a great feeling it is to have put kaimana to bed, to be sitting in the rocking chair that is a hand-me-down from my grandparents (the glider kind with a gliding ottoman in country blue) with the laptop on my lap, listening to the random car drive by and the hum of the refrigerator, waiting for zach to come home, and being happy.  it's just one of those moments where nothing special has happened, nothing special is expected to happen, and any second those discontented feelings could arise, but it doesn't matter.  i feel good.  i have great friends, a great family, and slowly but surely i WILL pay off the great balance on my credit card ; )